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la Déesse
Gudinnan
the Goddess
MAY
with Angela Bettis
Lucky McKee
(USA -02)
le Chevalier
Riddaren
the Knight
DIREKTÖREN FOR DET HELE
Lars von Trier
(Denmark -06)
la Mére
Modern
the Mother
BATTLESTAR GALACTICA
Season One, episode 1,2,3,4...
(USA -04)
l'Enfant
Barnet
the Child
FINDING NEVERLAND
with Johnny Depp, Kate Winslet and children
Marc Forster
(USA -04)
le Professeur
Magistern
the Teacher
FAHRENHEIT 451
[built on Ray Bradbury's book]
Francois Truffaut
(France -66)
Re-examined
la Maîtresse
Älskarinnan
the Mistress
PAULINE A LA PLAGE
[Pauline on the Beach]
Eric Rohmer
(France -83)
Re-examined
la Magicien
Trollkarlen
the Illusionist
WHY WORRY?
with HAROLD LLOYD
Sam Taylor and Fred Newmeyer
(USA -23)
even though I still like Buster Keaton better
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les Funambules Vivante
de Levande Lindansarna
the Living Tightrope Dancers
Belgiska Barn
som talar om för oss vuxna vad vi lär dem
Regisserat av en britt
performance under Dans o TeaterFestivalen
(Göteborg -08)
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31 augusti 2008
ORD OF L'AMOUR
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Kärlek
Love
Amour
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att Älska
to Love
que Aimer
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Skapa ett Barn
Creating a Child
Créer une Enfant
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vara Älskad av
be Loved by
être Aimé de...
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vara FörÄlskad i
be In Love with
être Amoureux de...
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bli Kåt /Upphetsad
become Horny /Excited
devenir Excité
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ha Samlag med // Ligga med
having Intercourse with // Sleep with
faire l'Amour avec // Coucher avec
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Kyssa varandra // Krama varandra
Kiss each other // Hug each other
(se) Embrasser (l'un l'autre) // (se) Embrasser (l'un l'autre)
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1.
Kärlek
Love
Amour
2.
att Älska
to Love
que Aimer
3.
Skapa ett Barn
Creating a Child
Créer une Enfant
4.
vara Älskad av
be Loved by
être Aimé de...
5.
vara FörÄlskad i
be In Love with
être Amoureux de...
6.
bli Kåt /Upphetsad
become Horny /Excited
devenir Excité
7.
ha Samlag med // Ligga med
having Intercourse with // Sleep with
faire l'Amour avec // Coucher avec
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Kyssa varandra // Krama varandra
Kiss each other // Hug each other
(se) Embrasser (l'un l'autre) // (se) Embrasser (l'un l'autre)
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29 augusti 2008
28 augusti 2008
You Now Not Here But Between Us
my part of a dangling conversation:
Is this you NOW?
Oh, now I woke up!
My words ended.
I was gazing deeper into your eyes...
I can show you much more of that hair... Yes, but I miss it more inside my head than outside my head :-)
Yes, eyes and voice and body language says so very much more of who you are. However not necessarily who you are consciously trying to be... Then I think writing or pictures can tell more...
Yes, I know I have a pic of a nun!
Is it allowed? :-)
Maybe she knew I took it, but in that case I didn't knew she was aware...
We will meet... but I don't know yet in which kind of way...
What do I mean?
Well, I love my instant speculations too :-)
And I love you're laughing and I love your love!!
Maybe you're bored with that kinda thinking, but I don't know yet if we meet in this life or in another life, or already have met... Anyway, I would like to meet you!
But maybe the dream of sometime maybe meeting you is stronger than my will of actually physically meeting you...? You know I usually function that way with almost every people...!
Don't worry! Do you feel I'm becoming too complicated or too honest??
Of course I believe in Love! And I think love really is IN the dreaming!
Well, it can be not just in my head, but in your head too, or in everyone's head...
Substance, yes, but I've learned to see feelings and thought as a kind of substance too...
We should joy chatting about more concrete things!
Maybe good for you you're not here in this room now...
I would have a hard time trying to NOT kiss you!
Or maybe just hug you!?
But it's not only myself... You see it a bit wrong :-)
I belive when the body dies there's still feelings and thoughts left. Does it clarify something?
Now I know: Memories of body and memories of physical meetings are necessary to build a feeling of love on. We have to create new memories, but also already have so much memories, to me it seems too much memories...
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Is this you NOW?
Oh, now I woke up!
My words ended.
I was gazing deeper into your eyes...
I can show you much more of that hair... Yes, but I miss it more inside my head than outside my head :-)
Yes, eyes and voice and body language says so very much more of who you are. However not necessarily who you are consciously trying to be... Then I think writing or pictures can tell more...
Yes, I know I have a pic of a nun!
Is it allowed? :-)
Maybe she knew I took it, but in that case I didn't knew she was aware...
We will meet... but I don't know yet in which kind of way...
What do I mean?
Well, I love my instant speculations too :-)
And I love you're laughing and I love your love!!
Maybe you're bored with that kinda thinking, but I don't know yet if we meet in this life or in another life, or already have met... Anyway, I would like to meet you!
But maybe the dream of sometime maybe meeting you is stronger than my will of actually physically meeting you...? You know I usually function that way with almost every people...!
Don't worry! Do you feel I'm becoming too complicated or too honest??
Of course I believe in Love! And I think love really is IN the dreaming!
Well, it can be not just in my head, but in your head too, or in everyone's head...
Substance, yes, but I've learned to see feelings and thought as a kind of substance too...
We should joy chatting about more concrete things!
Maybe good for you you're not here in this room now...
I would have a hard time trying to NOT kiss you!
Or maybe just hug you!?
But it's not only myself... You see it a bit wrong :-)
I belive when the body dies there's still feelings and thoughts left. Does it clarify something?
Now I know: Memories of body and memories of physical meetings are necessary to build a feeling of love on. We have to create new memories, but also already have so much memories, to me it seems too much memories...
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Loneliness as UnSynchronized Togetherness
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How interesting you mention the aspect of control!
If we were never disturbed or distracted, if we always could manage to synchronize our needs, wishes and will with others' - maybe then we would be even more social creatures than the extraverted people...!?
At least I would choose to be together with friends eight days a week, IF I could only make them constantly curious to study/play the same things as me, at the same time and place as me...!! That doesn't mean at all they have to feel/think the same way as me, no, they still will be their own type.
Your words potentially makes me realise I choose to be alone because I experience true teamwork too rare and too fragile to be possible. And this since it seems impossible to look inside each others minds... (=a dilemma that only IN:s are concerned about as being a dilemma?).
But like some of you I strive (in complete solitude, this wonderful loneliness) for the ideal of being really together, yes, sometime eternally together :-)
["If I spend lots of time with people I love then I need time away. But I love the time that I spend with them so I don't want to have time away, but I know that I need it. Then once I'm alone I love being alone and kinda dred seeing the person again,..."]
Your description of the process and whole dilemma is very very good!!
Seems we want company more than ever when we're close to lose it. And want loneliness more than ever when we're close to lose it...
I've come to realise it's all a matter of changeovers! It is painful to cross the line from one world to another. Therefore I rather stay alone while alone, and rather continue to be with friends when I am with friends.
Do you recognize this frustration about having to change situation, but then gladly welcome the change since the line's only been passed...??
Intellectually we can see that we need both to be alone and together, but physically and emotionally (in room and time) it's a story of much more trickiness...
Maybe 'cause we're already half aware that we will want so overwhelmingly much of every situation!!
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How interesting you mention the aspect of control!
If we were never disturbed or distracted, if we always could manage to synchronize our needs, wishes and will with others' - maybe then we would be even more social creatures than the extraverted people...!?
At least I would choose to be together with friends eight days a week, IF I could only make them constantly curious to study/play the same things as me, at the same time and place as me...!! That doesn't mean at all they have to feel/think the same way as me, no, they still will be their own type.
Your words potentially makes me realise I choose to be alone because I experience true teamwork too rare and too fragile to be possible. And this since it seems impossible to look inside each others minds... (=a dilemma that only IN:s are concerned about as being a dilemma?).
But like some of you I strive (in complete solitude, this wonderful loneliness) for the ideal of being really together, yes, sometime eternally together :-)
["If I spend lots of time with people I love then I need time away. But I love the time that I spend with them so I don't want to have time away, but I know that I need it. Then once I'm alone I love being alone and kinda dred seeing the person again,..."]
Your description of the process and whole dilemma is very very good!!
Seems we want company more than ever when we're close to lose it. And want loneliness more than ever when we're close to lose it...
I've come to realise it's all a matter of changeovers! It is painful to cross the line from one world to another. Therefore I rather stay alone while alone, and rather continue to be with friends when I am with friends.
Do you recognize this frustration about having to change situation, but then gladly welcome the change since the line's only been passed...??
Intellectually we can see that we need both to be alone and together, but physically and emotionally (in room and time) it's a story of much more trickiness...
Maybe 'cause we're already half aware that we will want so overwhelmingly much of every situation!!
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27 augusti 2008
More into Simon & Garfunkel Before Walking Out into The World.......?
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Wondering why I always listen more to them when I soon will go somewhere far away....... and feel I'm both longing to go and never ever leave at all.
Are Simon & Garfunkel's songs really more about traveling away and/or isolating at home than other artist's songs are?!?
Question Also Was By Which Song I Fell in Love With Their Music:
For Emily (Whenever I May Find Her)... However in the shape of the live version on their Greatest Hits. I was amazed that a song being so short yet could feel like a long, slow dream. And stripped to the core essence, with no interrupting refrain or orchestra, how it still can be so shifting and elastically passionate, from so soft to so strong...!
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Wondering why I always listen more to them when I soon will go somewhere far away....... and feel I'm both longing to go and never ever leave at all.
Are Simon & Garfunkel's songs really more about traveling away and/or isolating at home than other artist's songs are?!?
Question Also Was By Which Song I Fell in Love With Their Music:
For Emily (Whenever I May Find Her)... However in the shape of the live version on their Greatest Hits. I was amazed that a song being so short yet could feel like a long, slow dream. And stripped to the core essence, with no interrupting refrain or orchestra, how it still can be so shifting and elastically passionate, from so soft to so strong...!
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Sunday Magazine Mirror Scene
Lyric made of lines from different Simon & Garfunkel-songs:
Sitting on a Sofa on a Sunday Afternoon
Spend My Time Writing Songs I Can't Believe
I Heard Cathedral Bells Tripping Down the Alley Ways
Weaving Time in a Tapestry
Nothing that Remains But the Ashes of a Bible
BookMarkers that Measure What We've Lost
I'm Just One Step Ahead of the ShoeShine
I Can't Touch What I Feel
Time is Tapping On my ForeHead, Hangin' From my Mirror
Every Day's an Endless Dream [Stream] of Cigarettes and Magazines
When I Come Back to Bed Someone's Taken My Place
You Should Know that I'm Womanly Wise
She Said the Man in the Gabardine Suit was a Spy
I Have my Books and my Poetry to Protect Me
And Hidden Deep Within His Pocket... He Holds a Colored Crayon
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23 augusti 2008
Never Ending Need of ReMemorizing
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Yes, right, I'm really attached to memories, my own memories as well as other people's memories. Seems however like it's not the memorized phenomenons for themselves (the actual pictures, places, feelings, faces, situations and such) that I love. Well, not in the first place... and not in the meaning that I'm unwilling to replace them.
Rather I love the fact that I have, or others have, or the world have, some important memories. (Or even the idea that I have forgotten memories which can be remembered.) Try my best to experience the relation between every kind of memory... the pleasure of reviewing the whole matrix of memories... and like to observe when others are doing so.
Like real nostalgians, I feel an everyday resistance against making new experiences, and therefore not being open to what can be right now. But unlike real nostalgians I'm willing to make new memories in the meaning of transforming the longtime memories into more and more relevant shapes, seeing those aspects of the memories which has most to do with who I am right now, or whom my friends seems to be right now. Well, which of my memories best explains the situation for the moment.......
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Yes, right, I'm really attached to memories, my own memories as well as other people's memories. Seems however like it's not the memorized phenomenons for themselves (the actual pictures, places, feelings, faces, situations and such) that I love. Well, not in the first place... and not in the meaning that I'm unwilling to replace them.
Rather I love the fact that I have, or others have, or the world have, some important memories. (Or even the idea that I have forgotten memories which can be remembered.) Try my best to experience the relation between every kind of memory... the pleasure of reviewing the whole matrix of memories... and like to observe when others are doing so.
Like real nostalgians, I feel an everyday resistance against making new experiences, and therefore not being open to what can be right now. But unlike real nostalgians I'm willing to make new memories in the meaning of transforming the longtime memories into more and more relevant shapes, seeing those aspects of the memories which has most to do with who I am right now, or whom my friends seems to be right now. Well, which of my memories best explains the situation for the moment.......
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22 augusti 2008
Grundsteg för CiRKUS SEPTuNUS
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Vi är Cirkus Septunus!
We are Circus Septunus!
Världens första cirkus i Rymden!
World's first circus in Space!
Vi spänner trådar från planet till planet...
We're stretching wires from planet to planet...
Sedan dansar vi längs trådarna!!
Then we're dancing cross the wires!!
Våra steg blir lysande skrift i det svarta...
Our steps becomes glowing writing in darkness...
Vi drömmer rakt ner över eran sovstad!
We're dreaming straight down over your dormitory suburb!
Vårt ljus är långsammare än sol, fast smidigare än skugga.
Our light is slower than sun, but more supple than shadow.
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Vi är Cirkus Septunus!
We are Circus Septunus!
Världens första cirkus i Rymden!
World's first circus in Space!
Vi spänner trådar från planet till planet...
We're stretching wires from planet to planet...
Sedan dansar vi längs trådarna!!
Then we're dancing cross the wires!!
Våra steg blir lysande skrift i det svarta...
Our steps becomes glowing writing in darkness...
Vi drömmer rakt ner över eran sovstad!
We're dreaming straight down over your dormitory suburb!
Vårt ljus är långsammare än sol, fast smidigare än skugga.
Our light is slower than sun, but more supple than shadow.
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Balancing Between Me And Another Scene
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Well, in my life I just saw seven french tightrope-dancers playing theatre. I dream to learn to make my poetry become stories for some scene performance, which would be a good new step for me... to try to make fantasy function in reality.
Well, in a way I'm less in tune with feeling, if we by "feeling" mean ordinary feelings that ain't intermixed with something else, such as pure anger, pure sadness, pure happiness and so on.
But I still FEEL that I'm in tune with feeling as an energy. I experience everyday, all the time, that I'm becoming curious or apathetic, fearful or satisfied, by whatever I do. Or even more BEFORE (or after) I've done it...!!
Well, I'm "never in need of" looking at one certain subject to experience a world to think about /have feelings for. I just take a glimpse outside my window and then there's immediately a whole puzzle to make a picture of, or a whole picture to make a puzzle of ;-)
Well, I think I can feel what you mean! The narrow mind who's focusing on oneself... However in my view this all depends on how wide-eyed ones picture of oneself is... If you, the really total you, not only your body, if You are almost as eternal as God, then there's more than enough to understand by focusing on yourself, since it's not only yourself. And God becomes not smaller or less important in my eyes when I'm becoming bigger or more important. And other people grows also similar to me growing in my eyes. I mean if I really am so good and eternal, then God must be incredibly much more.......
Well, I'm also trying to find the most beautiful girl in the world (or anyone of them, or two). Did you happen to see her? Nice little one on your profile-picture! Is she you? :-) Maybe you have made her?
Well, more and more often my life takes the shape of "existential depression". However, at the same time, I can switch fast from depressiveness to deep excitement. As it seems I find more and more meaningful ways of knowing the world. So, my main source for such a split could even be pure stress. How will I manage to get time to study all I would want to!?? No reason to do anything at all. How unfair of God he only lets me choose one or two ways right now.......
Well, I could say something more like this, but I've already told it too many very times, even if not exactly to you!!
Well, I got messages from all over the world and had a hard time answering instead of just questioning and storytelling. However now they seemed to have ceased... Can this be because I've almost stopped to ask new questions, afraid of not having time to anwer the answers?
Well, in an aspect your suspiscion is right! I reacted very strongly for some minutes, fearful and something between angry and sad. Then I let the waves of this vibration effect my mind and body negatively for the next hour. But it was not negative at all. I realised you're quite right about my relation to life being cold, maybe even too ego-centered, not classically egoistic but not either really caring here and now for others in practical life! Whether my intentions is to continue be like I am or not is another bigger question....... My immediate fear also was the same as yours : you not wanna communicate with me anymore... I was not angry/sad at all that you said what you said. I liked it very much!! To try to see/feel how right or wrong you were. However, true words aren't negative or hurting by themselves, even if you had meant them. You care so wonderfully much about others and their feelings that you a bit too often think you have hurt them. But humans hurt themselves all the time, and we only use our friends words as a possible reason/source to feel bad. [Maybe this also is a bit cold, ego-centered view of mine...].
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Well, in my life I just saw seven french tightrope-dancers playing theatre. I dream to learn to make my poetry become stories for some scene performance, which would be a good new step for me... to try to make fantasy function in reality.
Well, in a way I'm less in tune with feeling, if we by "feeling" mean ordinary feelings that ain't intermixed with something else, such as pure anger, pure sadness, pure happiness and so on.
But I still FEEL that I'm in tune with feeling as an energy. I experience everyday, all the time, that I'm becoming curious or apathetic, fearful or satisfied, by whatever I do. Or even more BEFORE (or after) I've done it...!!
Well, I'm "never in need of" looking at one certain subject to experience a world to think about /have feelings for. I just take a glimpse outside my window and then there's immediately a whole puzzle to make a picture of, or a whole picture to make a puzzle of ;-)
Well, I think I can feel what you mean! The narrow mind who's focusing on oneself... However in my view this all depends on how wide-eyed ones picture of oneself is... If you, the really total you, not only your body, if You are almost as eternal as God, then there's more than enough to understand by focusing on yourself, since it's not only yourself. And God becomes not smaller or less important in my eyes when I'm becoming bigger or more important. And other people grows also similar to me growing in my eyes. I mean if I really am so good and eternal, then God must be incredibly much more.......
Well, I'm also trying to find the most beautiful girl in the world (or anyone of them, or two). Did you happen to see her? Nice little one on your profile-picture! Is she you? :-) Maybe you have made her?
Well, more and more often my life takes the shape of "existential depression". However, at the same time, I can switch fast from depressiveness to deep excitement. As it seems I find more and more meaningful ways of knowing the world. So, my main source for such a split could even be pure stress. How will I manage to get time to study all I would want to!?? No reason to do anything at all. How unfair of God he only lets me choose one or two ways right now.......
Well, I could say something more like this, but I've already told it too many very times, even if not exactly to you!!
Well, I got messages from all over the world and had a hard time answering instead of just questioning and storytelling. However now they seemed to have ceased... Can this be because I've almost stopped to ask new questions, afraid of not having time to anwer the answers?
Well, in an aspect your suspiscion is right! I reacted very strongly for some minutes, fearful and something between angry and sad. Then I let the waves of this vibration effect my mind and body negatively for the next hour. But it was not negative at all. I realised you're quite right about my relation to life being cold, maybe even too ego-centered, not classically egoistic but not either really caring here and now for others in practical life! Whether my intentions is to continue be like I am or not is another bigger question....... My immediate fear also was the same as yours : you not wanna communicate with me anymore... I was not angry/sad at all that you said what you said. I liked it very much!! To try to see/feel how right or wrong you were. However, true words aren't negative or hurting by themselves, even if you had meant them. You care so wonderfully much about others and their feelings that you a bit too often think you have hurt them. But humans hurt themselves all the time, and we only use our friends words as a possible reason/source to feel bad. [Maybe this also is a bit cold, ego-centered view of mine...].
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20 augusti 2008
Beginnen Original ORD Apprendre
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Origin, Genesis
Ursprung, Uppkomst, Tillblivelse
Ursprung, Entstehung
Origine, Genèse
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Begin, Initiate
Börja, Inleda
Beginnen, Anfangen, Einleiten
Commencer, Amorcer
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Continue, Reproduce
Fortsätta, Fortplanta sig
Fortfahren, sich Fortpflanzen
Continuer, se Reproduire
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Origin, Genesis
Ursprung, Uppkomst, Tillblivelse
Ursprung, Entstehung
Origine, Genèse
1.
Begin, Initiate
Börja, Inleda
Beginnen, Anfangen, Einleiten
Commencer, Amorcer
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Continue, Reproduce
Fortsätta, Fortplanta sig
Fortfahren, sich Fortpflanzen
Continuer, se Reproduire
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19 augusti 2008
NÄSTAN iNLÅSTA BAKOM KULiSSLABYRiNTEN {näst SiSta HiSnande Scenen}
samtidig återglimt samt omskrivning av
fantasiScenario från mitten på april
{inspirerad av sammanstrålning med Sus....}
inför sista scenen som tillkommer någon
framtida gång för igår aftons föreställning
iNSTÄNGDA I KORRiDORERNA går vi. Genom dörr efter dörr.. Vi är skådespelerskan och jag. De andra försvann efter föreställningen tog slut. Teatern har egentligen inte öppet så här länge, så larmet skall alldeles strax gå. Skådespelerskan vill före dess visa mig skåpet med de fantasifullaste dräkterna i hela stan. Hon säger att hon nästan minns var logen finns. Från osynliga hål i taket hänger hårslingor från bortglömda peruker. Det luktar vin lite här och var. Skådespelerskan stryker i farten min hand över sin svarta kavajärm.
Dörrarna bakom oss går enbart att öppna från hållet vi redan kommit ifrån. Kommer ihåg hur denna lilla kvinna såg på mig, på en gång ömsint och kritiskt, som ville hon spela med mig, agera min lärarinna i någon sorts drömspel. Det känns som en djup bekräftelse varenda gång dörrarna strular, varenda gång de postmoderna pipen icke lyckas stämma överens med de uråldriga sifferkoderna. Det verkar som om marionettskötaren bakom teatern gör sitt jobb, som att han genom själva motståndet är med oss. Har han valt denna skådespelerska att göra någonting akut med mig!?
Det måste ske innan larmet sätter igång vid midnatt. I annat fall blir hon av med sitt arbete, medan jag kommer att sluta som skådespelare istället för manusförfattare. Hon är 8 1/2 år yngre än mig, men rör sig likafullt som en spindelfisk i hemtamt akvarium. Fastän skådespelerskan aldrig heller har varit innanför just dessa kulisserna förr, förefaller det hur naturligt somhelst för henne att vistas här, att ha tillgång till varenda liten privat vrå i det offentliga livet...! Det är en bit av hennes andedräkt. Hon är etablerad artist, jobbar som ljussätterska vid sidan om. Jag kommer helt utifrån, dessutom med extremt ringa erfarenheter för min ålder. Dethär är min värld också, men blott i glimtar från ett tidigare liv, ej genom det nuvarande. Inte ännu...
De uppspända dansdräkterna stirrar på oss genom skrattande glasmontrar. Nej, det är fortfarande inte de riktigt fantasifullaste. Vi hade kunnat slinka ut den vanliga entrén, som vilken publik somhelst, och sedan sammanstråla på någon angränsande tidpunkt. Nå... Egentligen vill jag ju stanna här inne med henne, vara fördömda tillsammans i teaterns nattstängda labyrint. Larmet har fortfarande inte gått... ...det bara blinkar i lysrören, avvaktar i mystiska intervall, ilar i lufttrummorna. Det kunde vara ett fint äventyr. Emellertid... Håller hon på att lura på mig en roll!? Söker hon inbilla mig att jag (bakom masken) är självaste marionettskötaren!? Vore just ett snyggt lockbete, en trick för att få fria händer att kontrollera min önskedröm, i ännu större hemlighet...
Bakom nästa hörn visar sig en hiss. Där står att vi befinner oss på våning 11. Det är omöjligt. Föreställningen försisggick en trappa ned. Sedan scenen har vi knappt stött på ett enda trappsteg. Men skådespelerskan ser näppeligen minsta överraskad ut! Uppenbarligen har hon fått för sig att jag redan är en skicklig manusförfattare, en långt mer insatt herre än jag i själva verket är. Eller är jag...? Övertygelsen strålar så starkt så det måste vara jag som behöver ändra på mitt minne. För nu har hon ju fört mig ända in hit. Hennes föreställning har satt sig alltför djupt i mina muskler. Och fungerar inte den här hissen på samma vis som verkligheten gör, då är vi totalt jäkla inlåsta..!!
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fantasiScenario från mitten på april
{inspirerad av sammanstrålning med Sus....}
inför sista scenen som tillkommer någon
framtida gång för igår aftons föreställning
iNSTÄNGDA I KORRiDORERNA går vi. Genom dörr efter dörr.. Vi är skådespelerskan och jag. De andra försvann efter föreställningen tog slut. Teatern har egentligen inte öppet så här länge, så larmet skall alldeles strax gå. Skådespelerskan vill före dess visa mig skåpet med de fantasifullaste dräkterna i hela stan. Hon säger att hon nästan minns var logen finns. Från osynliga hål i taket hänger hårslingor från bortglömda peruker. Det luktar vin lite här och var. Skådespelerskan stryker i farten min hand över sin svarta kavajärm.
Dörrarna bakom oss går enbart att öppna från hållet vi redan kommit ifrån. Kommer ihåg hur denna lilla kvinna såg på mig, på en gång ömsint och kritiskt, som ville hon spela med mig, agera min lärarinna i någon sorts drömspel. Det känns som en djup bekräftelse varenda gång dörrarna strular, varenda gång de postmoderna pipen icke lyckas stämma överens med de uråldriga sifferkoderna. Det verkar som om marionettskötaren bakom teatern gör sitt jobb, som att han genom själva motståndet är med oss. Har han valt denna skådespelerska att göra någonting akut med mig!?
Det måste ske innan larmet sätter igång vid midnatt. I annat fall blir hon av med sitt arbete, medan jag kommer att sluta som skådespelare istället för manusförfattare. Hon är 8 1/2 år yngre än mig, men rör sig likafullt som en spindelfisk i hemtamt akvarium. Fastän skådespelerskan aldrig heller har varit innanför just dessa kulisserna förr, förefaller det hur naturligt somhelst för henne att vistas här, att ha tillgång till varenda liten privat vrå i det offentliga livet...! Det är en bit av hennes andedräkt. Hon är etablerad artist, jobbar som ljussätterska vid sidan om. Jag kommer helt utifrån, dessutom med extremt ringa erfarenheter för min ålder. Dethär är min värld också, men blott i glimtar från ett tidigare liv, ej genom det nuvarande. Inte ännu...
De uppspända dansdräkterna stirrar på oss genom skrattande glasmontrar. Nej, det är fortfarande inte de riktigt fantasifullaste. Vi hade kunnat slinka ut den vanliga entrén, som vilken publik somhelst, och sedan sammanstråla på någon angränsande tidpunkt. Nå... Egentligen vill jag ju stanna här inne med henne, vara fördömda tillsammans i teaterns nattstängda labyrint. Larmet har fortfarande inte gått... ...det bara blinkar i lysrören, avvaktar i mystiska intervall, ilar i lufttrummorna. Det kunde vara ett fint äventyr. Emellertid... Håller hon på att lura på mig en roll!? Söker hon inbilla mig att jag (bakom masken) är självaste marionettskötaren!? Vore just ett snyggt lockbete, en trick för att få fria händer att kontrollera min önskedröm, i ännu större hemlighet...
Bakom nästa hörn visar sig en hiss. Där står att vi befinner oss på våning 11. Det är omöjligt. Föreställningen försisggick en trappa ned. Sedan scenen har vi knappt stött på ett enda trappsteg. Men skådespelerskan ser näppeligen minsta överraskad ut! Uppenbarligen har hon fått för sig att jag redan är en skicklig manusförfattare, en långt mer insatt herre än jag i själva verket är. Eller är jag...? Övertygelsen strålar så starkt så det måste vara jag som behöver ändra på mitt minne. För nu har hon ju fört mig ända in hit. Hennes föreställning har satt sig alltför djupt i mina muskler. Och fungerar inte den här hissen på samma vis som verkligheten gör, då är vi totalt jäkla inlåsta..!!
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18 augusti 2008
Giving Life tWo SomeOne
from my part of correspondation with angel CiS:
[1. it didnt sound like you wanted marriage or children with C...... (maybe with someone else?) ]
We never knew each other long time enough to find out how we were able to function together, whether a more responsible relation could have been something for us to believe in.
Especially having a child is something I think too many people are taking too easy. Maybe they're more willing to do it than I am. But if I really would put my will to growing up a baby, then I should be very very willing!! I should not meet my child or woman only one or two hours per day!! I would communicate with my child and study my child much more than so...
However, this far in my life, I still can't see a real possibility to take time for such a relation/project. Not if I will be the poet, philosopher and life-viewer that I want to continuing to be... And not to speak how it would be with more than one child...
It's strange, I've never been Christian, not even considered seriously to be. But many of the persons I become friend with, they are true Christian (or religious or spiritual in some other way).
I also understood you meant pleasure is good, but that using pleasure for creating life is much much MORE good, and that avoiding creating life is NOT good.
I will think/feel more about this.
.......while together we were together days and nights without paus. I guess it worked so fine because we were willing and able to share everything, both inner and outer worlds. Of course there were some real conflicts too. Obviously you can say it became too much during same period of time.
And after that I'm consciously trying to control my relations (or potential relations) a little more. I still long for a complete "everything-relation", but on the other hand I more and more have come to appreciate short meetings and intimate experiences without knowing each other more than in some aspects. Even though the most part is taking place in my dreams rather than physical reality.
Our relation was so much exactly that which really happened, and everything happened, right there and then....... I never had time to dream, since it already was like a living dream. And the dreaming-process was what I missed most. It's first during later years I have had some good dreams about C, since it's "no longer possible" to be together with her.
[2. you seem happier with fantasy than with having someone real.]
Yes :-)
But the fruit of fantasy must of course be watered by real meetings from time to time!! Or by good products of human art, writings or pictures from this life...
I can also (which maybe sounds very weird and chilly according to me wanna spend really much time with my wife and baby) imagine something good in the possibility giving my seed to one woman or some women who really are prepared raising a child. Or to some legal collective institution of "child-up-feeders", if there would be any need for me help contributing to life....... But not then by just chemical process - 'cause I would really value the joy and spirituality of the intercourse, and knowing which mother I would fertilize!
Should also explain that since I believe in Reincarnation (if not necessary to planet Earth again, there will be other planets too...) I don't see the absolute worth of having a child in this very life. I even think it could be best for some humans (maybe including myself) to wait until a future life to be able to focus more on the birth and parenting. The present life could be better to spend giving "spiritual fruit" and charing ones actual state developed through former actions. Even if probably not consciously remembering once having a child in another life.......
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[1. it didnt sound like you wanted marriage or children with C...... (maybe with someone else?) ]
We never knew each other long time enough to find out how we were able to function together, whether a more responsible relation could have been something for us to believe in.
Especially having a child is something I think too many people are taking too easy. Maybe they're more willing to do it than I am. But if I really would put my will to growing up a baby, then I should be very very willing!! I should not meet my child or woman only one or two hours per day!! I would communicate with my child and study my child much more than so...
However, this far in my life, I still can't see a real possibility to take time for such a relation/project. Not if I will be the poet, philosopher and life-viewer that I want to continuing to be... And not to speak how it would be with more than one child...
It's strange, I've never been Christian, not even considered seriously to be. But many of the persons I become friend with, they are true Christian (or religious or spiritual in some other way).
I also understood you meant pleasure is good, but that using pleasure for creating life is much much MORE good, and that avoiding creating life is NOT good.
I will think/feel more about this.
.......while together we were together days and nights without paus. I guess it worked so fine because we were willing and able to share everything, both inner and outer worlds. Of course there were some real conflicts too. Obviously you can say it became too much during same period of time.
And after that I'm consciously trying to control my relations (or potential relations) a little more. I still long for a complete "everything-relation", but on the other hand I more and more have come to appreciate short meetings and intimate experiences without knowing each other more than in some aspects. Even though the most part is taking place in my dreams rather than physical reality.
Our relation was so much exactly that which really happened, and everything happened, right there and then....... I never had time to dream, since it already was like a living dream. And the dreaming-process was what I missed most. It's first during later years I have had some good dreams about C, since it's "no longer possible" to be together with her.
[2. you seem happier with fantasy than with having someone real.]
Yes :-)
But the fruit of fantasy must of course be watered by real meetings from time to time!! Or by good products of human art, writings or pictures from this life...
I can also (which maybe sounds very weird and chilly according to me wanna spend really much time with my wife and baby) imagine something good in the possibility giving my seed to one woman or some women who really are prepared raising a child. Or to some legal collective institution of "child-up-feeders", if there would be any need for me help contributing to life....... But not then by just chemical process - 'cause I would really value the joy and spirituality of the intercourse, and knowing which mother I would fertilize!
Should also explain that since I believe in Reincarnation (if not necessary to planet Earth again, there will be other planets too...) I don't see the absolute worth of having a child in this very life. I even think it could be best for some humans (maybe including myself) to wait until a future life to be able to focus more on the birth and parenting. The present life could be better to spend giving "spiritual fruit" and charing ones actual state developed through former actions. Even if probably not consciously remembering once having a child in another life.......
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17 augusti 2008
is this CiS, yes, is almost soon
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is Ä in swedish
Aengel is an angel
is she
of course
is this CiS?
yes, is!
coming almost home
Gaius is with this woman
They are imagining each other while are touching each other
not for real of course
"I'm together with You in my mind.
Don't you think you're together with Me in Your mind!?"
Well, this is her fantasy speaking
p.s. "Älskling" means kinda more than kindness of "Darling"
Andreas is
but will more soon...!
Bä
bära bort bären
"Musiken är försvunnen"
säger Alice
"The music is nowhere"
says CiS
but it soon is now
everway anyhow
Sometimes you only have to meet a child to be open again
and franska is swedish for french
welle, oies
i forgot to learn really
I is
out off from this
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is Ä in swedish
Aengel is an angel
is she
of course
is this CiS?
yes, is!
coming almost home
Gaius is with this woman
They are imagining each other while are touching each other
not for real of course
"I'm together with You in my mind.
Don't you think you're together with Me in Your mind!?"
Well, this is her fantasy speaking
p.s. "Älskling" means kinda more than kindness of "Darling"
Andreas is
but will more soon...!
Bä
bära bort bären
"Musiken är försvunnen"
säger Alice
"The music is nowhere"
says CiS
but it soon is now
everway anyhow
Sometimes you only have to meet a child to be open again
and franska is swedish for french
welle, oies
i forgot to learn really
I is
out off from this
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16 augusti 2008
Am I Talking To Myself...?!?!
Question was : -Are You Talking To Yourself?
I'm talking all the time inside my head, but seldom put it out through my lips. And I never make voice to this kind of talk, neither when completely alone nor when I'm aware that another person could hear me.
Often I write regularily intead of just having inner talk. Seems I need the inner talking to think more clearly (or feel more clearly).
During periods there can be long debates with my friends inside my head, where I of course am playing all the parts :-)
This goes on in order to let someone convince me of something I don't think/feel I want to, examining if he/she will manage after all. Or just to allow myself defending the point of view I believe I have, and examine if I will manage.
Things haven't been receivers of my talking since I was a child, well, maybe when playing theatre...
Yes, in general my inner talking is with friends from reality, rather than with pure imaginary persons. When they are imaginary I let them speak out of their own world, not with me :-)
And seldom the talking goes on between my inner friends : I am almost always one of the parts.
Sometimes sad that I use so much time with my friends inside my head, and so little time with them outside!!
Glad anyway I can use the talking as a problem solving, and kinda prepare myself before communication really goes on! But too often it just keeps going round and round until I consciously choose to stop it, or put on a talking book instead :-)
(By the way, thinking and talking inside ones head is said to be impossible without moving the tongue at least a little bit. If you stop the tongue, you may stop the inner talk.)
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I'm talking all the time inside my head, but seldom put it out through my lips. And I never make voice to this kind of talk, neither when completely alone nor when I'm aware that another person could hear me.
Often I write regularily intead of just having inner talk. Seems I need the inner talking to think more clearly (or feel more clearly).
During periods there can be long debates with my friends inside my head, where I of course am playing all the parts :-)
This goes on in order to let someone convince me of something I don't think/feel I want to, examining if he/she will manage after all. Or just to allow myself defending the point of view I believe I have, and examine if I will manage.
Things haven't been receivers of my talking since I was a child, well, maybe when playing theatre...
Yes, in general my inner talking is with friends from reality, rather than with pure imaginary persons. When they are imaginary I let them speak out of their own world, not with me :-)
And seldom the talking goes on between my inner friends : I am almost always one of the parts.
Sometimes sad that I use so much time with my friends inside my head, and so little time with them outside!!
Glad anyway I can use the talking as a problem solving, and kinda prepare myself before communication really goes on! But too often it just keeps going round and round until I consciously choose to stop it, or put on a talking book instead :-)
(By the way, thinking and talking inside ones head is said to be impossible without moving the tongue at least a little bit. If you stop the tongue, you may stop the inner talk.)
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15 augusti 2008
How to Make new Friends...?
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First of all : Laugh, from inside yourself!
If you begin with really enjoying your own company (in whatever situation there'll be), then potential friends will see that you truly are a fun person, one who will be comfortable to be with!!
The person who is able to self-amuse doesn't send out needy signals that he/she desperately would crave something from others. And then they will not be afraid of spending time getting to know him/her behind the surface, since they're confident knowing you can laugh whatever will happen.
Myself I forget to laugh many many times each day... I even stop believe in the power of having fun, until I once more can verify the great difference (in every kind of interaction) from when I'm depressed or full of suspiciousness.
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First of all : Laugh, from inside yourself!
If you begin with really enjoying your own company (in whatever situation there'll be), then potential friends will see that you truly are a fun person, one who will be comfortable to be with!!
The person who is able to self-amuse doesn't send out needy signals that he/she desperately would crave something from others. And then they will not be afraid of spending time getting to know him/her behind the surface, since they're confident knowing you can laugh whatever will happen.
Myself I forget to laugh many many times each day... I even stop believe in the power of having fun, until I once more can verify the great difference (in every kind of interaction) from when I'm depressed or full of suspiciousness.
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14 augusti 2008
Alone or Not Alone .......for How Long.......?
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How long do you manage being Alone without going crazy...?
With no people at all around
- for how long time will you stay psychologically well-balanced...
or even enjoy the situation...?
All practical, physiological things "will be fixed" for the future.
The struggle is only within your mind/heart, between yourself and your longing to be with other humans.
If you want a clearer context for the question:
Let's say you are on a spaceship
with a computer you can communicate with just seven persons through,
only writing, not speaking, not seeing living pictures of them,
but with some movies and books in your library onboard
(and with the possibility of meeting some creature somewhere in space).
I'm aware of this being an extremely hypothetic question
and you can modify it as you want.
Maybe none of us can answer out of experience,
but the point is getting to know how well we think/feel we would stay comfortable with being complete alone...
...just writing/reading stories about reality,
to which degree our inner world functions solipsistic or craves contact with others.
If you've already tested your limits, I can instead ask for how long you actually managed being alone
and which motivation was your primary for changing the situation...?
[Doesn't this imply we're psychologically well balanced to start with? What does it mean to be well balanced?]
You're right, I'm assuming we're already (RELATIVELY) well from the start!
Being balanced - well : Can this be a question of how well we interplay with other individuals...? Or in this case : how well we interplay with our own imagination of the possibility of others...
But since this tells nothing about what it is, I suggest psychological balance can be the ability NOT to identify oneself TOO deep with an emotion or a thought. In other words the ability to be flexible, to discover different spectras, BUT with enough consistence to avoid getting lost in relativity, to keep centered long enough around something.......
And if I were alone in space, i'd try to join a group of asteroids :)
[Another question; would you know that you have gone crazy?!]
Hmm, would we know when we have gone crazy...?
Would we know this without other individuals as "mirrors"?
Maybe you already thought in that way...?
I can see the possibility you still can know, but only IF you have something human, let's say already written books, to meassure your present state of consciousness against, to compare your actual experience with.
But then we still will need faith in the existence of the humans who wrote the books, that they exist (or have existed, if you don't believe in reincarnation).
Maybe something like keep ones faith in God...?
And let's say if you observe how the planets outside your spaceship behave in the way written in your books, then it's naturally easier to feel connection, not being alone, 'cause someone else obviously has observed (or figured out) the same world.
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How long do you manage being Alone without going crazy...?
With no people at all around
- for how long time will you stay psychologically well-balanced...
or even enjoy the situation...?
All practical, physiological things "will be fixed" for the future.
The struggle is only within your mind/heart, between yourself and your longing to be with other humans.
If you want a clearer context for the question:
Let's say you are on a spaceship
with a computer you can communicate with just seven persons through,
only writing, not speaking, not seeing living pictures of them,
but with some movies and books in your library onboard
(and with the possibility of meeting some creature somewhere in space).
I'm aware of this being an extremely hypothetic question
and you can modify it as you want.
Maybe none of us can answer out of experience,
but the point is getting to know how well we think/feel we would stay comfortable with being complete alone...
...just writing/reading stories about reality,
to which degree our inner world functions solipsistic or craves contact with others.
If you've already tested your limits, I can instead ask for how long you actually managed being alone
and which motivation was your primary for changing the situation...?
[Doesn't this imply we're psychologically well balanced to start with? What does it mean to be well balanced?]
You're right, I'm assuming we're already (RELATIVELY) well from the start!
Being balanced - well : Can this be a question of how well we interplay with other individuals...? Or in this case : how well we interplay with our own imagination of the possibility of others...
But since this tells nothing about what it is, I suggest psychological balance can be the ability NOT to identify oneself TOO deep with an emotion or a thought. In other words the ability to be flexible, to discover different spectras, BUT with enough consistence to avoid getting lost in relativity, to keep centered long enough around something.......
And if I were alone in space, i'd try to join a group of asteroids :)
[Another question; would you know that you have gone crazy?!]
Hmm, would we know when we have gone crazy...?
Would we know this without other individuals as "mirrors"?
Maybe you already thought in that way...?
I can see the possibility you still can know, but only IF you have something human, let's say already written books, to meassure your present state of consciousness against, to compare your actual experience with.
But then we still will need faith in the existence of the humans who wrote the books, that they exist (or have existed, if you don't believe in reincarnation).
Maybe something like keep ones faith in God...?
And let's say if you observe how the planets outside your spaceship behave in the way written in your books, then it's naturally easier to feel connection, not being alone, 'cause someone else obviously has observed (or figured out) the same world.
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13 augusti 2008
Does God Exist.......? {answering someone who could not resist.......}
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Well, yes, the question "Why?" isn't anwerd by the question "How?"!!
I just think (and feel) that it's more logical for the better version to be, and it seems more meaningful with existence than non-existence.
I motivate this meaning with (the possibility of) LOVE and (the possibility of) CONSCIOUNESS, but think there can be other/more ways of meaningful motive for existence, especially those ones we don't know yet...
Then - doesn't anyone of you believe in Reincarnation?
Then there's always a before, even if it's hidden in forgetfulness.
I think that the paradoxes we find when "in vain" looking for an absolute beginning or absolute ending, that this shows for us that the answer rather lies in something else than the very first creation or very last dissapearance.
I now believe that room and time and consciousness and everything is ETERNAL (=always has been), but that the actual aspects always changes, transforms, leaps through dying and resurrection. By free will and/or force.
Therefore there will always be new "Big Bangs". And the kind of ways they're gonna start and the ways they're gonna end, those are unnumerable, since the idea of eternity itself includes endless ways, impossible for us to overview (at least from our present conception of time and space).
The idea or ideas (kinda Platonic) behind everything always consists, since they're including time and aren't effected by time "from the outside". And maybe we can say, yes, it's God who has these eternal ideas "in his head".
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Well, yes, the question "Why?" isn't anwerd by the question "How?"!!
I just think (and feel) that it's more logical for the better version to be, and it seems more meaningful with existence than non-existence.
I motivate this meaning with (the possibility of) LOVE and (the possibility of) CONSCIOUNESS, but think there can be other/more ways of meaningful motive for existence, especially those ones we don't know yet...
Then - doesn't anyone of you believe in Reincarnation?
Then there's always a before, even if it's hidden in forgetfulness.
I think that the paradoxes we find when "in vain" looking for an absolute beginning or absolute ending, that this shows for us that the answer rather lies in something else than the very first creation or very last dissapearance.
I now believe that room and time and consciousness and everything is ETERNAL (=always has been), but that the actual aspects always changes, transforms, leaps through dying and resurrection. By free will and/or force.
Therefore there will always be new "Big Bangs". And the kind of ways they're gonna start and the ways they're gonna end, those are unnumerable, since the idea of eternity itself includes endless ways, impossible for us to overview (at least from our present conception of time and space).
The idea or ideas (kinda Platonic) behind everything always consists, since they're including time and aren't effected by time "from the outside". And maybe we can say, yes, it's God who has these eternal ideas "in his head".
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11 augusti 2008
walking with my faraway woman
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I'm walking with a woman
on each side of the world
When she takes two steps closer
I'm running like I've heard
her heartbeat in my body
her wonder in my head
Until we meet she's dreaming
my dream is never dead
I wrote the english version first,
then surprisingly fast made this translation
not meaning exactly the same, but almost:
Jag strosar med en kvinna
på var sin sida Jorden
När hon tar två steg närmre
då springer jag med orden
från hennes hjärtslag här i
mitt huvud hennes undran
Hon drömmer tills vi möts hur
jag aldrig slutar drömma
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I'm walking with a woman
on each side of the world
When she takes two steps closer
I'm running like I've heard
her heartbeat in my body
her wonder in my head
Until we meet she's dreaming
my dream is never dead
I wrote the english version first,
then surprisingly fast made this translation
not meaning exactly the same, but almost:
Jag strosar med en kvinna
på var sin sida Jorden
När hon tar två steg närmre
då springer jag med orden
från hennes hjärtslag här i
mitt huvud hennes undran
Hon drömmer tills vi möts hur
jag aldrig slutar drömma
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Forever Eleven ALPHAVILLE Favourites, part I + part II
i själva verket tillkommen 11 oktober
snarare än 11 augusti
Första skeppet med alla mina Alphavoriter
bland de låtar jag känner till hittills
vilket börjar närma sig en synnerligen stor bit av deras repertoar...
1.
som jag allra helst vill VARA
FANTASTIC DREAM
[Aquarian Warriors Rebuild the Ship]
from Afternoons in Utopia (-86)
or demo 2 from Dreamscapes Box cd 2
2.
som jag allra helst vill DANSA med
GUARDIAN ANGEL
from Salvation (-98)
3.
som jag allra helst vill SPELA TEATER med
BLAUER ENGEL
(-83) from Dreamscapes Box cd 7
4.
som jag allra helst vill FOTOGRAFERA
VICTORY OF LOVE
from Forever Young (-84)
[She's really an angel
She stands in the Sunshine.......
She's dreaming a Strange dream
where nothing is grey
and she takes me away]
5.
som jag allra helst vill ARBETA med
TRAUMTÄNZER
=[DrömDansare]
(-83) Demo Remix from Dreamscapes Box cd 1
6.
som jag allra helst vill HA SEX med
FALLEN ANGEL
from Forever Young (-84)
7.
som jag allra helst vill HA SKRIVIT
LADY BRIGHT
[whose speed where much faster than light
She departed one day
in a relativist way
and returned on the previous]
demo 1 from Dreamscapes Box cd 2
8.
som jag allra helst vill DRÖMMA OM
FOR A MILLION
from The Breathtaking Blue (-89)
9.
som jag allra helst vill DÖ under tiden som
FOREVER YOUNG
from Forever Young (-84)
(or maybe even rather the unplugged version from -92)
10.
som jag allra helst vill RESA TILL RYMDEN med
CAROL MASTERS
[Carol wants to go to Mars...]
even more the spacy demo 1 (from -81!!!!!!!)
from Dreamscapes Box cd 2
than the ready one on Afternoons in Utopia (-86)
11.
som jag allra helst vill att GUD ÄR
PANDORA'S LULLABY
from Salvation (-98)
also Opera version (-89)
och så Andra skeppet med alla mina Alphavorier:
12.
som jag nästan allra helst vill VARA
LEBEN OHNE ENDE
[Liv utan slut /Leva utan slut]
from Dreamscapes disc 1
on no main album (-83)
13.
som jag nästan allra helst vill DANSA med
ASTRAL BODY
Demo Remix
(-95) from Dreamscapes disc 7
but it's probably a lie, since I'm spinning rather happier with:
LIES
from Forever Young
14.
som jag nästan allra helst vill SPELA TEATER med
BIG IN JAPAN
Demo Remix
(from -78!!!!!!!) from Dreamscapes disc 1
(ordinary version on Forever Young (-84) is almost as good)
or some glimpses in Frankfurt Forum Freedom Time Warp-version (1978-93)
on Dreamscape-disc 7
15.
som jag nästan allra helst vill FOTOGRAFERA
ZOO
(Watch Me - You can yell at Me - Play with Me
But you better Not Touch me!
Does it make you feel better to know my heart is locked away?)
from box Crazy Show, disc 1 "The Terrible Truth About Paradise" (-03)
16.
som jag nästan allra helst vill ARBETA med
ANYWAY
from The Breathtaking Blue (-89)
(All the pieces came together
finally but not too late
Just pretend that I'm not there
Je t'aime anyway)
17.
som jag nästan allra helst vill HA SEX med
ROLL AWAY THE STONE
(Cha-la-la-la Push-Push!!)
=cover of a glamRock hit by Mott the Hoople (orig -74)
from Dreamscapes disc 5
18.
som jag nästan allra helst vill HA SKRIVIT
STILL FALLS THE RAIN
(Isn't it strange?
I'm not a ghost at all!)
NOT a cover of the Roxy Music-song with same title
HOWEVER the track follows right after a cover of their "Do The Strand"
(which Alphaville could have woven a richer web with than they do)
so this has to have some connection to Bryan Ferry anyway!?
from Crazy Show disc 2 "Last Summer On Earth" (-03)
I've just begun to listen to this late works,
so surely there are more very favourites there...
19.
som jag nästan allra helst vill DRÖMMA OM
SUMMER IN BERLIN
demo 1 from Dreamscapes disc 1
and/or demo 2 from Dreamscapes disc 7
both with a little richer air than the ready-made on Forever Young (-84)
20.
som jag nästan allra helst vill DÖ under tiden som
LASSIE COME HOME!
from Afternoons in Utopia (-86)
21.
som jag nästan allra helst vill RESA TILL RYMDEN med
APOLLO
(...is the end of the show...
will rise from the ashes and return.......)
from Prostitute (-94)
22.
som jag nästan allra helst vill att GUD ÄR
WHAT IS LOVE
(-88) from Dreamscapes disc 5
(shines like a neon sign
It ain't so far
just that distance is unbelievable)
=cover of someone's??
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snarare än 11 augusti
Första skeppet med alla mina Alphavoriter
bland de låtar jag känner till hittills
vilket börjar närma sig en synnerligen stor bit av deras repertoar...
1.
som jag allra helst vill VARA
FANTASTIC DREAM
[Aquarian Warriors Rebuild the Ship]
from Afternoons in Utopia (-86)
or demo 2 from Dreamscapes Box cd 2
2.
som jag allra helst vill DANSA med
GUARDIAN ANGEL
from Salvation (-98)
3.
som jag allra helst vill SPELA TEATER med
BLAUER ENGEL
(-83) from Dreamscapes Box cd 7
4.
som jag allra helst vill FOTOGRAFERA
VICTORY OF LOVE
from Forever Young (-84)
[She's really an angel
She stands in the Sunshine.......
She's dreaming a Strange dream
where nothing is grey
and she takes me away]
5.
som jag allra helst vill ARBETA med
TRAUMTÄNZER
=[DrömDansare]
(-83) Demo Remix from Dreamscapes Box cd 1
6.
som jag allra helst vill HA SEX med
FALLEN ANGEL
from Forever Young (-84)
7.
som jag allra helst vill HA SKRIVIT
LADY BRIGHT
[whose speed where much faster than light
She departed one day
in a relativist way
and returned on the previous]
demo 1 from Dreamscapes Box cd 2
8.
som jag allra helst vill DRÖMMA OM
FOR A MILLION
from The Breathtaking Blue (-89)
9.
som jag allra helst vill DÖ under tiden som
FOREVER YOUNG
from Forever Young (-84)
(or maybe even rather the unplugged version from -92)
10.
som jag allra helst vill RESA TILL RYMDEN med
CAROL MASTERS
[Carol wants to go to Mars...]
even more the spacy demo 1 (from -81!!!!!!!)
from Dreamscapes Box cd 2
than the ready one on Afternoons in Utopia (-86)
11.
som jag allra helst vill att GUD ÄR
PANDORA'S LULLABY
from Salvation (-98)
also Opera version (-89)
och så Andra skeppet med alla mina Alphavorier:
12.
som jag nästan allra helst vill VARA
LEBEN OHNE ENDE
[Liv utan slut /Leva utan slut]
from Dreamscapes disc 1
on no main album (-83)
13.
som jag nästan allra helst vill DANSA med
ASTRAL BODY
Demo Remix
(-95) from Dreamscapes disc 7
but it's probably a lie, since I'm spinning rather happier with:
LIES
from Forever Young
14.
som jag nästan allra helst vill SPELA TEATER med
BIG IN JAPAN
Demo Remix
(from -78!!!!!!!) from Dreamscapes disc 1
(ordinary version on Forever Young (-84) is almost as good)
or some glimpses in Frankfurt Forum Freedom Time Warp-version (1978-93)
on Dreamscape-disc 7
15.
som jag nästan allra helst vill FOTOGRAFERA
ZOO
(Watch Me - You can yell at Me - Play with Me
But you better Not Touch me!
Does it make you feel better to know my heart is locked away?)
from box Crazy Show, disc 1 "The Terrible Truth About Paradise" (-03)
16.
som jag nästan allra helst vill ARBETA med
ANYWAY
from The Breathtaking Blue (-89)
(All the pieces came together
finally but not too late
Just pretend that I'm not there
Je t'aime anyway)
17.
som jag nästan allra helst vill HA SEX med
ROLL AWAY THE STONE
(Cha-la-la-la Push-Push!!)
=cover of a glamRock hit by Mott the Hoople (orig -74)
from Dreamscapes disc 5
18.
som jag nästan allra helst vill HA SKRIVIT
STILL FALLS THE RAIN
(Isn't it strange?
I'm not a ghost at all!)
NOT a cover of the Roxy Music-song with same title
HOWEVER the track follows right after a cover of their "Do The Strand"
(which Alphaville could have woven a richer web with than they do)
so this has to have some connection to Bryan Ferry anyway!?
from Crazy Show disc 2 "Last Summer On Earth" (-03)
I've just begun to listen to this late works,
so surely there are more very favourites there...
19.
som jag nästan allra helst vill DRÖMMA OM
SUMMER IN BERLIN
demo 1 from Dreamscapes disc 1
and/or demo 2 from Dreamscapes disc 7
both with a little richer air than the ready-made on Forever Young (-84)
20.
som jag nästan allra helst vill DÖ under tiden som
LASSIE COME HOME!
from Afternoons in Utopia (-86)
21.
som jag nästan allra helst vill RESA TILL RYMDEN med
APOLLO
(...is the end of the show...
will rise from the ashes and return.......)
from Prostitute (-94)
22.
som jag nästan allra helst vill att GUD ÄR
WHAT IS LOVE
(-88) from Dreamscapes disc 5
(shines like a neon sign
It ain't so far
just that distance is unbelievable)
=cover of someone's??
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10 augusti 2008
throwing moonlight through the Never Ending Rainbow
I asked another question in our introverted group:
Which kind of LIGHT do you feel most Comfortable or Creative in?
Me:
When the sun burst through the dark clouds with some special, "magical" beams - that's the light I find most inspiring and feel as really "friend-with-life" in.
The brightest daylight I find boring and too intense.
Grey "shadowless" light seems also dull and not so meditative as it could, but maybe becomes for some of you..?
Is this an INFP tendency, to prefer quite "romantic" lightning?
As well dramatic as soft mood...
Or are we already so full of shadows that we're drawn to more "easy" and clear lights..?
Candle-light I think I feel really good in. Sorry to say I often forget the possibility to light candles, and use little lamps or coloured spotlights instead. And too often I forget to discover some new nuance, before many months has passed in the same light.......
Replying to a reply:
Streetlamps can give good feelings, yes!
You mention diffusion - I would like to compare that with rain... :-) The general light while compact rainclouds I'm not fond of at all. But if we put some direct source of light in the middle of the rain (why not a streetlamp or a motorcycle), shining through all the water in a million of potential angles - then it becomes a much greater story!
Not to mention the magic effect of the rainbow!! (or rather the rainbow as the effect, from sunbeams broken through many small raindrops).
[I read INFPs are also most likely to love the rain...]
I completely adore rain - but only as long as I'm indoors and the rain's outdoors :-D Then it helps me to contemplate, to concentrate on introspective activities without bad conscience for not being out in the sun :)
Otherwise I dislike rain as much as most people do. However I've learned to realise that my own negative expectations of rain to come, is much worse than the actual experience of the rain itself.
And soft rain during still sunny, this is almost even better than just sunlight :-)
Another one asks: [I read somewhere that INFPs are most likely of all the types to be attracted to sad things. Do you think this is true? Why or why not? Is that a bad thing?]
Me:
Let's take music:
During many years I was most attracted to the sadest songs, the slow-downed pieces. Not because I liked being depressed, but rather I became more happy by listening to sad things, more released.
Maybe the sad ones usually are "deeper", more "dreamful", coming from the most introspective mode and lyrics...?
Now I more often find depth, beauty and uplifting power in any kind of mode, in every kind of music. This is the case since I listen to it more patiently, more consciously curious, not expecting to to be immediately sent to heaven from my first meeting with a melody and it's rhytms.
And later replying to her reply:
Your words makes me wonder if sadness contains something more than just sadness..? And now I think this feeling can help to put ones mind in a state of CONCENTRATION.
You say Stina you've written your best poetry while sad... Have you still the same feeling when you've begun to write, or rather just before..?
I write much fantasies, often in the shape of poetry, and it flows even more when I'm joyful. However - if I'm first feeling very serious, melancholic, confused or just passive, and then begins to discover there's no reason for being down or frustrated, and new curious blood rushes to my head - then it really works best.
Then I once again send up rockets to space like everything is the most fun I've ever done. I'm not really mano-depressive, but I guess the process resembles such behaviour.
Another aspect of concentration:
Is sadness an effective stress-reliever?
Stress makes it hard to focus or remember clearly, and I think about what you say how honest sadness can be.
Can it be that sadness makes it easier to be in contact with ones true thoughts 'n feelings, the ones which return and has something to tell, that ain't random..!?
Is concentration a main reason that makes INFP:s prefer sadness, since it helps us continuing being introspective..!?
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Which kind of LIGHT do you feel most Comfortable or Creative in?
Me:
When the sun burst through the dark clouds with some special, "magical" beams - that's the light I find most inspiring and feel as really "friend-with-life" in.
The brightest daylight I find boring and too intense.
Grey "shadowless" light seems also dull and not so meditative as it could, but maybe becomes for some of you..?
Is this an INFP tendency, to prefer quite "romantic" lightning?
As well dramatic as soft mood...
Or are we already so full of shadows that we're drawn to more "easy" and clear lights..?
Candle-light I think I feel really good in. Sorry to say I often forget the possibility to light candles, and use little lamps or coloured spotlights instead. And too often I forget to discover some new nuance, before many months has passed in the same light.......
Replying to a reply:
Streetlamps can give good feelings, yes!
You mention diffusion - I would like to compare that with rain... :-) The general light while compact rainclouds I'm not fond of at all. But if we put some direct source of light in the middle of the rain (why not a streetlamp or a motorcycle), shining through all the water in a million of potential angles - then it becomes a much greater story!
Not to mention the magic effect of the rainbow!! (or rather the rainbow as the effect, from sunbeams broken through many small raindrops).
[I read INFPs are also most likely to love the rain...]
I completely adore rain - but only as long as I'm indoors and the rain's outdoors :-D Then it helps me to contemplate, to concentrate on introspective activities without bad conscience for not being out in the sun :)
Otherwise I dislike rain as much as most people do. However I've learned to realise that my own negative expectations of rain to come, is much worse than the actual experience of the rain itself.
And soft rain during still sunny, this is almost even better than just sunlight :-)
Another one asks: [I read somewhere that INFPs are most likely of all the types to be attracted to sad things. Do you think this is true? Why or why not? Is that a bad thing?]
Me:
Let's take music:
During many years I was most attracted to the sadest songs, the slow-downed pieces. Not because I liked being depressed, but rather I became more happy by listening to sad things, more released.
Maybe the sad ones usually are "deeper", more "dreamful", coming from the most introspective mode and lyrics...?
Now I more often find depth, beauty and uplifting power in any kind of mode, in every kind of music. This is the case since I listen to it more patiently, more consciously curious, not expecting to to be immediately sent to heaven from my first meeting with a melody and it's rhytms.
And later replying to her reply:
Your words makes me wonder if sadness contains something more than just sadness..? And now I think this feeling can help to put ones mind in a state of CONCENTRATION.
You say Stina you've written your best poetry while sad... Have you still the same feeling when you've begun to write, or rather just before..?
I write much fantasies, often in the shape of poetry, and it flows even more when I'm joyful. However - if I'm first feeling very serious, melancholic, confused or just passive, and then begins to discover there's no reason for being down or frustrated, and new curious blood rushes to my head - then it really works best.
Then I once again send up rockets to space like everything is the most fun I've ever done. I'm not really mano-depressive, but I guess the process resembles such behaviour.
Another aspect of concentration:
Is sadness an effective stress-reliever?
Stress makes it hard to focus or remember clearly, and I think about what you say how honest sadness can be.
Can it be that sadness makes it easier to be in contact with ones true thoughts 'n feelings, the ones which return and has something to tell, that ain't random..!?
Is concentration a main reason that makes INFP:s prefer sadness, since it helps us continuing being introspective..!?
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9 augusti 2008
Back to the Now.......?
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My new american female friend asked which age I (or we in the group) do prefer to go to back for a week to, if it was possible...?
She: [Every time, I usually choose 5 but today I choose 12...]
I: Yes, generally I would also choose 5 (or 4 or even 3), since fantasies/fantasy was strongest developing then, and memories began to become clear entities.
But of course I would prefer to study .......from my present state of knowledge and consciousness....... how I learned to put pictures/names/symbols to phenomenons. And the struggle for understanding mysterious things like the seven days of the week - how this really was perceived from within my fantasy then. (Or even more from within my friend's fantasies!!)
((Anyhow, during last months I've thought more about the age of 8-11, a period that I've seldom identified myself with afterwards, until now. It was full of fears and lost identity, through unvoluntary group-activities, or isolating in trying to avoid them, but so much I could have grown by doing more willfully.))
Then I replied this to something that my new australian friend answered to her question:
Hm, extremely interesting!! We seem, after all, to see Stinas idea through quite different angles...
I would be extremely motivated to go back for awhile to a choosen moment, just to experience things as I really experienced them. And so for the pure repeated Feeling itself (like listening to a wellknown sweet melody once more). But also in order to update my knowledge (=Thoughts) of how my mind percieved the whole situation.
And I don't view my past that overall "meaningless" as you seem to do (..?). Maybe that's why I seldom live here and now. I also always rather play with future possibilities than with what I have in front of me now. -Are you like me in this aspect, or more being present??
Of course, Matt, our memories can be enough, if they're clear. Otherwise going back would be like watching your memory on a big movie-screen instead of a display on your mobile-phone. And what's to prefer!?
Well, in a way you're right with not needing the physical return unless one will change something, since changes often are connected with physical results. But what I think is the INFP in me has to protest a little bit here too.
Because if I change my perception/experience of what actually happened or how something felt, my nowaday passions will struggle in different proportions. Or if I change what I thought during some periods in life, then my present memory (or from childhood seen my future memory :-)) will also be different, and thereby influence how I am now. Right!?
And therefore also what I will do now. Right!?
Or does this sound like Psychedelic Fiction?? ;-)
She asked then if I'm familiar with the concept of the film Butterfly Effect, which I can't remember that I am yet.
Later I ventilated some Solaris with a Juha who had answered Stina's question to mention book- or movie-characters we associate close with [herself: I would say Clarisse from the book Fahrenheit 451]:
I'm borderline INTP/INFP and love Tarkovsky's movies for their existential feeling, poetical camerawork combined with a harsh kind of philosophical thinking.
What about Kris are you most associating with?
Myself I can identify with his struggling to keep sharp and not going insane, trying to choose which perceptions and people to consider true or false, forced to questioning his present relation to his memories.
.......
I think can recognize myself too in your good description of the thoughts as wide-open to change from meeting ghosts in sudden room/time-positions (may they be imaginary or real), making ones memory a sometimes scary labyrinth.
This sounds in a way more INF...? ...like extraverting ones Thinking and keep Feeling introverted.
With a potential for truly understanding identification as well as for falsely projecting ones own imagination onto other individuals...
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My new american female friend asked which age I (or we in the group) do prefer to go to back for a week to, if it was possible...?
She: [Every time, I usually choose 5 but today I choose 12...]
I: Yes, generally I would also choose 5 (or 4 or even 3), since fantasies/fantasy was strongest developing then, and memories began to become clear entities.
But of course I would prefer to study .......from my present state of knowledge and consciousness....... how I learned to put pictures/names/symbols to phenomenons. And the struggle for understanding mysterious things like the seven days of the week - how this really was perceived from within my fantasy then. (Or even more from within my friend's fantasies!!)
((Anyhow, during last months I've thought more about the age of 8-11, a period that I've seldom identified myself with afterwards, until now. It was full of fears and lost identity, through unvoluntary group-activities, or isolating in trying to avoid them, but so much I could have grown by doing more willfully.))
Then I replied this to something that my new australian friend answered to her question:
Hm, extremely interesting!! We seem, after all, to see Stinas idea through quite different angles...
I would be extremely motivated to go back for awhile to a choosen moment, just to experience things as I really experienced them. And so for the pure repeated Feeling itself (like listening to a wellknown sweet melody once more). But also in order to update my knowledge (=Thoughts) of how my mind percieved the whole situation.
And I don't view my past that overall "meaningless" as you seem to do (..?). Maybe that's why I seldom live here and now. I also always rather play with future possibilities than with what I have in front of me now. -Are you like me in this aspect, or more being present??
Of course, Matt, our memories can be enough, if they're clear. Otherwise going back would be like watching your memory on a big movie-screen instead of a display on your mobile-phone. And what's to prefer!?
Well, in a way you're right with not needing the physical return unless one will change something, since changes often are connected with physical results. But what I think is the INFP in me has to protest a little bit here too.
Because if I change my perception/experience of what actually happened or how something felt, my nowaday passions will struggle in different proportions. Or if I change what I thought during some periods in life, then my present memory (or from childhood seen my future memory :-)) will also be different, and thereby influence how I am now. Right!?
And therefore also what I will do now. Right!?
Or does this sound like Psychedelic Fiction?? ;-)
She asked then if I'm familiar with the concept of the film Butterfly Effect, which I can't remember that I am yet.
Later I ventilated some Solaris with a Juha who had answered Stina's question to mention book- or movie-characters we associate close with [herself: I would say Clarisse from the book Fahrenheit 451]:
I'm borderline INTP/INFP and love Tarkovsky's movies for their existential feeling, poetical camerawork combined with a harsh kind of philosophical thinking.
What about Kris are you most associating with?
Myself I can identify with his struggling to keep sharp and not going insane, trying to choose which perceptions and people to consider true or false, forced to questioning his present relation to his memories.
.......
I think can recognize myself too in your good description of the thoughts as wide-open to change from meeting ghosts in sudden room/time-positions (may they be imaginary or real), making ones memory a sometimes scary labyrinth.
This sounds in a way more INF...? ...like extraverting ones Thinking and keep Feeling introverted.
With a potential for truly understanding identification as well as for falsely projecting ones own imagination onto other individuals...
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8 augusti 2008
Octopus's Top 88 Songs from my Summer Garden discoveries ....... {with half of the caves neveR Reached}
.......with some postume traces from even september and october........
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88.
LIFETIME
[.......to Unlearn All that you know.......
the things you borrowed for a day]
Van Der Graaf Generator
from Trisector (-08)
87.
I KNOW WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR NOW
Tift Merritt
from Another Country (-08)
86.
TOUCH TO REMEMBER
Jean Michel Jarre
from Téo & Téa (-07)
85.
COMPUTER BLUE
Prince
from Purple Rain (-84)
84.
DAMAGED PEOPLE
[When I Feel you near I Forget I'm Old and dying]
Depeche Mode
from Playing The Angel (-05)
83.
HAMMER HORROR
[so who knows all the sights of Nôtre Dame?
All I want to do is Forget you Friend!]
Kate Bush
from Lionheart (-78)
Re-discovered
82.
MAN OF TWO WORLDS
Ultravox
from Lament (-84)
81.
IN ONE DOOR
[and Out the Other]
The Stranglers
bonus track from Aural Sculpture (-84)
80.
MY ROOM (WAITING FOR WONDERLAND)
(Lost in a Labyrinth of Future Mystery)
Van Der Graaf Generator
from Still Life (-76)
79.
PRASINEC
The Plastic People Of The Universe
from Hovêzí Porázka (-84)
78.
INCANTATION no 1
Mike Oldfield
from Incantations (-78)
77.
EASTERN NUMBER (early version of AWAKEN)
or rather even:
AWAKEN
Yes
from Going for the One (-77)
76.
SEVEN BY SEVEN
Hawkwind
bonus track from In Search of Space (-71)
75.
THE MOUSETRAP (CAUGHT IN)
Peter Hammill
from The Future Now (-78)
74.
THE EMPEROR IN HIS WAR ROOM [...as your Stetson...]
Van Der Graaf Generator
from H to He Who Am the Only One (-70)
73.
TRIAD
(composed by David Crosby)
Jefferson Airplane
from Crown of Creation (-68)
72.
GEMINI
and SILENCE AND I
Alan Parson's Project
from Eye in the Sky (-82)
71.
PANTAGRUEL'S NATIVITY
Gentle Giant
from Aquiring The Taste (-71)
70.
PALINURUS
Peter Hammill
from The Future Now (-78)
69.
PATTERNS (of my life, the Puzzle that is me)
+ A POEM ON THE UNDERGROUND WALL
Simon & Garfunkel
from Parsley, Sage, Rosemary & Thyme (-66)
68.
I THINK I'M GO GO
Squeeze
from Argy Bargy (-80)
67.
FALLEN ANGEL
[She's an Elevator]
Alphaville
from Forever Young (-84)
66.
no:
22.
ALL I WANNA DO (IS BE WITH YOU)
Paul Weller
from 22 Dreams (-08)
21.
SOMETHING TO ME
Tift Merritt
from Another Country (-08)
20.
KENTUCKY WOMAN (live)
Neil Diamond
from Gold (-70)
not to mention SWEET CAROLINE
19.
KODACHROME
Paul Simon
from There Goes Rhymin' Simon (-73)
18.
FOUNTAIN OF SORROW
[a Photograph of You]
Joan Baez
[orig. Jackson Browne]
from Diamonds and Rust (-75)
17.
You're YOUR OWN WORST ENEMY
Alice Cooper
from Dirty Diamonds (-05)
16.
TAKE A SHOWER [with me, Baby!
Why do you keep saying Maybe maybe?!?]
Miss Li
from Songs of a RagDoll (-07)
15.
CINDY
[Would you like to do the Lindy?
...will send deliriously.......
running out of rhymes for...]
???
from ???
via friend for me to guess
14.
LA ROUTE
Vive La Fete
de Jour De Chance (-08)
13.
GABRIEL FAURÉ :
PIANO QUINTET no 1 (in d-minor)
written 1906
with Domus (Recorded -94)
12.
I THOUGHT I WAS A CHILD
Jackson Browne
from For Everyman (-73)
11.
MICHAEL
Joan Baez
from Honest Lullaby (-79)
10.
MORNINGS ELEVEN
The Magic Numbers
from The Magic Numbers (-05)
9.
ALL THAT BEFORE
[or did I say all that before?]
Van Der Graaf Generator
from Trisector (-08)
8.
SUNNDAL SONG and/or SUNDAY SOUNDS
The Apples in Stereo
from New Magnetic Wonder (-07)
7.
ANOTHER SATELLITE
[Time-Time-Time]
XTC
from Skylarking (-86)
6.
THE BIG SKY [Walking Out in the.......]
(Meterological Mix)
Kate Bush
from Hounds of Love (-85)
5.
FOURTH RENDEZ-VOUS
Jean Michel Jarre
de Rendez-Vous (-86)
Re-discovered
4.
FEHLER IM SYSTEM [Von Planeten Fern Fra...]
Peter Schilling
fra Fehler im System (-82)
3.
LIES
[Everything's an Interview
Get Ready for the Show!]
Alphaville
from Forever Young (-84)
2.
TELL ME SOMETHING TRUE
Tift Merrit
from Another Country (-08)
1.
I AM... I SAID
Neil Diamond
from Stones (-71)
Re-discovered
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and far above everyone:
111.
THE SPELL
[sitting in a french café]
Jon Anderson
bonus track from Animation (-83)
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88.
LIFETIME
[.......to Unlearn All that you know.......
the things you borrowed for a day]
Van Der Graaf Generator
from Trisector (-08)
87.
I KNOW WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR NOW
Tift Merritt
from Another Country (-08)
86.
TOUCH TO REMEMBER
Jean Michel Jarre
from Téo & Téa (-07)
85.
COMPUTER BLUE
Prince
from Purple Rain (-84)
84.
DAMAGED PEOPLE
[When I Feel you near I Forget I'm Old and dying]
Depeche Mode
from Playing The Angel (-05)
83.
HAMMER HORROR
[so who knows all the sights of Nôtre Dame?
All I want to do is Forget you Friend!]
Kate Bush
from Lionheart (-78)
Re-discovered
82.
MAN OF TWO WORLDS
Ultravox
from Lament (-84)
81.
IN ONE DOOR
[and Out the Other]
The Stranglers
bonus track from Aural Sculpture (-84)
80.
MY ROOM (WAITING FOR WONDERLAND)
(Lost in a Labyrinth of Future Mystery)
Van Der Graaf Generator
from Still Life (-76)
79.
PRASINEC
The Plastic People Of The Universe
from Hovêzí Porázka (-84)
78.
INCANTATION no 1
Mike Oldfield
from Incantations (-78)
77.
EASTERN NUMBER (early version of AWAKEN)
or rather even:
AWAKEN
Yes
from Going for the One (-77)
76.
SEVEN BY SEVEN
Hawkwind
bonus track from In Search of Space (-71)
75.
THE MOUSETRAP (CAUGHT IN)
Peter Hammill
from The Future Now (-78)
74.
THE EMPEROR IN HIS WAR ROOM [...as your Stetson...]
Van Der Graaf Generator
from H to He Who Am the Only One (-70)
73.
TRIAD
(composed by David Crosby)
Jefferson Airplane
from Crown of Creation (-68)
72.
GEMINI
and SILENCE AND I
Alan Parson's Project
from Eye in the Sky (-82)
71.
PANTAGRUEL'S NATIVITY
Gentle Giant
from Aquiring The Taste (-71)
70.
PALINURUS
Peter Hammill
from The Future Now (-78)
69.
PATTERNS (of my life, the Puzzle that is me)
+ A POEM ON THE UNDERGROUND WALL
Simon & Garfunkel
from Parsley, Sage, Rosemary & Thyme (-66)
68.
I THINK I'M GO GO
Squeeze
from Argy Bargy (-80)
67.
FALLEN ANGEL
[She's an Elevator]
Alphaville
from Forever Young (-84)
66.
no:
22.
ALL I WANNA DO (IS BE WITH YOU)
Paul Weller
from 22 Dreams (-08)
21.
SOMETHING TO ME
Tift Merritt
from Another Country (-08)
20.
KENTUCKY WOMAN (live)
Neil Diamond
from Gold (-70)
not to mention SWEET CAROLINE
19.
KODACHROME
Paul Simon
from There Goes Rhymin' Simon (-73)
18.
FOUNTAIN OF SORROW
[a Photograph of You]
Joan Baez
[orig. Jackson Browne]
from Diamonds and Rust (-75)
17.
You're YOUR OWN WORST ENEMY
Alice Cooper
from Dirty Diamonds (-05)
16.
TAKE A SHOWER [with me, Baby!
Why do you keep saying Maybe maybe?!?]
Miss Li
from Songs of a RagDoll (-07)
15.
CINDY
[Would you like to do the Lindy?
...will send deliriously.......
running out of rhymes for...]
???
from ???
via friend for me to guess
14.
LA ROUTE
Vive La Fete
de Jour De Chance (-08)
13.
GABRIEL FAURÉ :
PIANO QUINTET no 1 (in d-minor)
written 1906
with Domus (Recorded -94)
12.
I THOUGHT I WAS A CHILD
Jackson Browne
from For Everyman (-73)
11.
MICHAEL
Joan Baez
from Honest Lullaby (-79)
10.
MORNINGS ELEVEN
The Magic Numbers
from The Magic Numbers (-05)
9.
ALL THAT BEFORE
[or did I say all that before?]
Van Der Graaf Generator
from Trisector (-08)
8.
SUNNDAL SONG and/or SUNDAY SOUNDS
The Apples in Stereo
from New Magnetic Wonder (-07)
7.
ANOTHER SATELLITE
[Time-Time-Time]
XTC
from Skylarking (-86)
6.
THE BIG SKY [Walking Out in the.......]
(Meterological Mix)
Kate Bush
from Hounds of Love (-85)
5.
FOURTH RENDEZ-VOUS
Jean Michel Jarre
de Rendez-Vous (-86)
Re-discovered
4.
FEHLER IM SYSTEM [Von Planeten Fern Fra...]
Peter Schilling
fra Fehler im System (-82)
3.
LIES
[Everything's an Interview
Get Ready for the Show!]
Alphaville
from Forever Young (-84)
2.
TELL ME SOMETHING TRUE
Tift Merrit
from Another Country (-08)
1.
I AM... I SAID
Neil Diamond
from Stones (-71)
Re-discovered
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and far above everyone:
111.
THE SPELL
[sitting in a french café]
Jon Anderson
bonus track from Animation (-83)
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